She’s let herself go, they’re saying,
as if her self were a balloon
loosed over the street, its string fraying,
or like milk in a hot room
turned to curds. As has her flesh—
and true, her back teeth are missing,
her lipstick’s less than fresh
on her worn mouth (& not from kissing),
her roots have grown out, & her scent’s
the musk of her own skin. This kind
of self-forgetfulness, of a self spent,
in a girl would be a sign
of self-harming rage. It’s another thing
in a woman her age who has only one fight,
it’s come down to that: to find
a self to hold on to, & use it use it use it.
in The Southern Poetry Review 52:1 Summer 2014